I woke up this morning exhausted!! I slept really good, but could of definitely slept for a couple more hours!! I really haven’t been getting that much sleep lately. It took me forever to fall asleep last night because a)my mind was still going after my environmental planning exam last night (3 hours long, yikes!) and b) I was teaching a little bit of a spin class this morning for the first time!! I was dreaming of spin all night long! No wonder I was exhausted just waking up this morning.:)
My morning was very rushed, and I managed to get a bowl of Trix down the shoot and slam a glass of water down before I left to spin. By the way, I know this is not nutritious, but I really couldn’t help myself when I was walking through the grocery store last week!
Anyway, I walked into to spin class nervously, set up my bike, went to change into my biking shorts, all the normal things I do before class. As I was walking back to class from changing, Tricia, aka “the spinning guru” with over 20 years of experience indoor/outdoor, was announcing that I was going to teach a segment of the class today. Yikes. At least she announced my almost 7 years of cycling experience (indoor/outdoor) so I didn’t seem like a complete rookie. My heart rate started to sky rocket, and I hadn’t even jumped on my bike at this point. I clipped in and started pedaling, and trying to calm my mind. We had an LT test this morning, and I had lent my heart rate monitor to someone else to use who hadn’t taken the test before. I wasn’t even listening the music that was playing. I just kept trying to think of how I wanted my segment to go. I knew that I wanted hills and jumps. Hill Jumps! Perfect. I guess I looked like I was thinking too hard, and Tricia’s voice came through speaker, “Nicole, don’t over think it!!” I know, I know. I’m a perfectionist, what can I say?
Then all of the sudden, Tricia was mouthing for me to get up there in front of the class. Yikes. I did it though. I got up on that instructor bike, clipped in, put the mic on, and someone’s voice started coming through the speakers. It sounded exactly like my voice, but a little bit more confident than in my head. I think that it lasted for 10 minutes, I’m not quite sure. I was so nervous, but it didn’t come out that way at all.
For my second session today, I helped set up the bikes and talk to the participants about their form. Teaching a squadron is different than teaching a class full of regular indoor cyclists. It was a great class, but I was so tired afterward. Thank goodness, I had a snack of honey Greek yogurt with berries and granola before class! It is so important to fuel before your second a strenuous workout.
Sometimes we end up proving to ourselves that we are stronger than we think we are. I was so scared of what could go wrong this morning, that I just didn’t calm down enough to trust myself. I have many years of experience on the bike. What was I scared of? I underestimate, over analyze, and scrutinize myself too much sometimes. I hold myself to an unattainable standard that I hold no one else to. I really need to STOP doing this and give myself a break. I am a strong, confident, smart, capable woman. I think we all forget that about ourselves at times!
Let this be a reminder to you all today: YOU are a strong, confident, smart, capable woman. 😉
How have you all surprised yourselves today?