I went on my last run today before I run the Paris Marathon on Sunday. This week, I have basically been going crazy with pent up energy. Tapering before a race kills me! I do it though because I know that it will help me run the race that I want. @262ismycooldown mentioned on twitter on Tuesday that this was usually the week where self-doubt comes into play for him. I was convinced that I was fine until yesterday.
I was second guessing my training. I was second guessing myself. I was second guessing my ability to run at all.
For today on my last run before Paris (a 3 miler), all this second guessing was torturing me. I tried to fight it off with:
- You have done all you can do at this point.
- You are wasting energy worrying about something that you can’t change at this point.
- I am as prepared as I will ever be for this race.
I am fully aware that my time at this marathon may not be what I planned it to be at the beginning of my training because of things that happened to be out of my control: pneumonia and a retwisted ankle. I was consistent most of the time with my workouts when my health permitted which I know is important. I just need to listen to my own advice above, and not worry about it. What is done, is done as far as my training is concerned. For better or for worse, I am committed to this race, and I WILL complete it. I know that I can run 20 miles, and really once you’ve run 20 miles, what’s another 6.2? Haha, Watch, now that I say that, I will hit my wall at 21!
I will be repeating this for some of the race: “I trust you, my legs. You’ve been good to me so far in my life. I know you can get me through this race.”
I am also struggling with if I want to run my first marathon for time or just enjoy it. It will be in Paris after all. I know that if I’m concentrating on my pace, the Eiffel Tower will go by unnoticed.
My sis and mom get into town tomorrow. I must get back to cleaning before my mom shows up with her white gloves! haha
What would you do in my situation? Run for time or run for fun? Any good running mantras for me to remember?